So I'm in a good mood today and feel like writing. :)

I cleaned my apartment today. I looove cleaning. Dunno why. My desk is all tidy and neat. Everything is in its proper place. The kitchen is clean (Or as clean as I could get the damn thing...). Sheets are washed. Trash has been taken out. Its a nice day out so the windows are open and the fresh air is circulation throughout my home. My electronics have been freed from the dust that once covered them. My carpet is now one consistent color thanks to my beloved vacuum. All is right in the world.

Cameron will be here soon. I'm excited. And most likely will be drunk tonight, because that how Cameron likes it. Lol. We will be discussing the progress of the book. What we have learned since last we met. I shall show him my new characters and then he will show me his new stuff and then I will curse him for being so much better than me. Lol. Today is gonna be good.

I'm over that girl. She has already started going on other dates so not much I can really do about it. I don't care. Lol. Tho I wish I had listened to Cameron when he said she was flip-floppy. Its not until now that I realize how distracted by her I was. But now I'm caught up with my work and I'm getting my pages done.

Well, I'm off to color my pages until Cam gets here.

Peace.

Current Mood: cheerful

Graawwwrrr. I'm frustrated. I'm not sure whats the exact cause of it. Here are some ideas...

So I've been talking to this girl I knew in Augusta. Shes friends with a few of my friends and she is pretty cool. We had been talking a lot on AIM and what not and I pretty much adore her personality. And she is ridiculously cute as well. So I kinda started to like her. Out of no where one day she asked me if I did like her. I said yes and she said she liked me too. Seemed like we were pretty compatible. She mentioned needing a place to live because she couldn't stand her room mates. I offered my place and she seemed excited. I figured if she likes me enough to consider living with me then hot damn I'm in, right? Lol. ... Well I went to Augusta to see her and that closeness we shared online was kinda absent. I mean, she acted like she was happy to see me. Its just she stopped coming off as interested in me any more. Tho I have to admit. : / I'm prolly a lot more fun to talk to online than I am in a real social situation. I'm quite and shy. I'm more of a listener than a talker. And sometime I just feel completely socially awkward. So maybe that turned her off... I haven't talked to her since I've gotten back from Augusta. But I'll ask her about it and see whats up. Its disappointing... but understandable. People what to be with someone who is going to be as fun and they advertise themselves to be, right? If I'm in an online conversation situation I'm a bit more humorous, witty, flirtatious, and over all a better conversationalist. During face to face conversation I tend to be a bit more withdrawn, cautious, and just... quite... :( But thats not to say that I'm always like that. A lot of it has to do with my comfort level, how I'm feeling that day, how comfortable I am around the person I'm talking to. If I'm around someone I've been friends with for years I'm good. I can talk casually and what not. Shoot the shit. Yadayada. But around someone newer... and someone that I kinda like, its difficult to just... talk without over thinking. And that over thinking usually results in me either drawing blanks or saying something stupid or awkward...

BLAAAAAH.

So yeah. Normally, this wouldn't upset me. But I've been living by myself for the past month with no one I'm familiar with at all anywhere near me. I liked it at first. Finally a chance to focus. But now I've become lonely. :/ So the disappointment after getting my hopes up, after finding someone I felt like it would be easy to get along with, it kinda hurts to watch that just kinda... vanish.

I've been single for awhile. Which was my decision. I wanted to not have anyone for awhile. Not have anything to distract me while I worked on my projects. But I kinda want to have someone important in my life again. Not even like... just a girl friend. Just someone I can get close to and listen to and relate to.

But I might just be over analyzing the situation. Which I do a lot. I haven't talked to her about it so, like I said, I can't be certain that she has just completely lost all interest in me over night. It just feels that way and it sucks.

Erm... o_o'

So I have a job interview today. This weekend kinda blew my social confidence out the window for the moment. So I'm kinda nervous. But I'm sure I'll do okay...

...I think I'll buy a hat later today.

Peace.

Current Mood: lonely

HAVE YOU...

[ ] smoked.
[x] consumed alcohol.
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
[x] kissed someone of the same sex. (It was a dare. Don't judge me. o_o)
[x] had sex.
[x] had someone in your room other than family.
[x] watched porn
[ ] bought porn.
[ ] tried drugs.

TOTAL: 7


[x] taken painkillers.
[ ] taken someone else's prescription medicine.
[ ] lied to your parents.
[x] lied to a friend.
[ ] snuck out of the house.
[x] done something illegal.
[x] felt hurt.
[x] hurt someone.
[ ] wished someone to die.
[ ] seen someone die.

TOTAL: 12

[ ] missed curfew.
[x] stayed out all night.
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist.
[ ] received a ticket.
[ ] been to rehab
[ ] dyed your hair.
[ ] been in an accident.
[x] been to a club.
[ ] been to a bar

TOTAL: 16


[ ] been to a wild party.
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade.
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
[ ] had a spring break in Florida.
[ ] sniffed anything
[ ] wore black nail polish
[ ] wore arm bands.
[ ] wore t-shirts with band names.
[x] listened to rap.
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD.

TOTAL: 18

[ ] dressed gothic
[ ] dressed girly.
[ ] dressed punk.
[ ] dressed grunge.
[x] stole something.
[x] been too drunk to remember anything.
[ ] blacked out.
[ ] fainted.
[x] had a crush on a neighbor
TOTAL: 20


[x] had a crush on a friend.
[ ] been to a concert.
[x] dry-humped someone
[x] been called a slut. (XD Bwahaha...)
[ ] called someone a slut.
[ ] installed speakers in your car.
[ ] broken a mirror.
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.

TOTAL: 24

[x] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
[x] seen an R-rated movie in theater.
[ ] cruised the mall.
[ ] skipped school.
[ ] had surgery.
[x] had an injury.
[ ] gone to court.
[x] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. (By mistake...)
[x] caught something on fire.
[ ] lied about your age.

TOTAL: 29

[ ] owned/rented an apartment/house.
[ ] broke the law in the police's presence.
[x] made out with someone who had a gf/bf
[ ] got in trouble with the police.
[x] talked to a stranger.
[x] hugged a stranger.
[ ] kissed a stranger.
[x] rode in the car with a stranger.
[x] been harassed.
[x] been verbally harassed.

TOTAL: 35


[ ] met face-to-face with someone you met online.
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
[ ] watched TV for 5 hours straight.
[x] been to a fair.
[x] been called a bad influence.
[ ] drank and drove.
[ ] prank-called someone.
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] cheated on a test.

TOTAL: 41


If You Have Less Than 10.. write [I'm a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [I'm still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid]
If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [I should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70..Write [I should be dead]

Bwahaha, I didn't do as bad as Michelle. >:3

Apparently I like to text when I am drunk. ALOT. I need to get someone to hide my phone before I start drinking...

I am clingy when I'm drunk. Therefore I am annoying. ._. Waaaah.

Apparently I either babble insanely or just chill the hell out when I'm drunk.

I like attempting to walk properly when I'm drunk. Even if I know I can't. Result = five bruises.

I'm excited about how long my summer break will be! I'm not going to school until October so I can focus on some of my side projects, on my friends and on Fizzy. I can't wait to move out tho. Words can not even begin to express how excited I am.

:( I want to get laid. Baaaaaadly. Dammit.

ONLY A FEW MORE DAYS!!!!!

Current Mood: horny

I'm single now. Sam broke up with me last night. It feels better. -_- A lot less stressful.

So I've been contemplating getting drunk. For a number of reasons...

Seeing and hearing the effect it has on people is ridiculously interesting to me. Nate, one of the most well mannered and well behaved people I know, will become one of the rowdiest people ever to walk the face of the earth. Knocked over my damn DVD rack... found naked pictures of Sam on my computer... recorded a "drunk log" involving how much he loves his cousin (me) and how I'm a family guy, but not like family guy the TV show as seem on adult swim. Sam, who seemingly hates every girl I come into contact with will suddenly say that she really doesn't have a problem with any of them, drool on my keyboard, then rape me. Amanda R. feels the need to call me whenever she gets drunk. XD Its adorable actually. She is rather flirty when she is drunk and that the only time she is ever flirty with me.

Reason number 2: Control

Everyone seems to lose control of themselves to a degree. I am one of those people who like to stay in control. I always keep my emotions on a leash, I don't get angry very easily, and when dealing with my girlfriend, I try to resolve conflicts with logic, witch pisses her off cuz I don't get upset like she does when we don't agree. x_x' So the though of something being able to make me let go of that fascinates me. I honestly want to see what it would be like to try to resist the effects of being drunk and remaining completely logical...which from what I've seem never happens. But I kinda wanna try.

<_<' The chick in the advertisement on the right of my screen is extremely attractive.... dammit. I don't want to make a habit out of it tho if I do do it. And I want to pick who I do it around. If I feel like its something that I'm better off staying away from after the first time, I wont do it again. If I don't feel like it had much of an effect on me I may do it again to satisfy others curiosity about what I'm like when I'm drunk since more or less EVERYONE I know wants to know what kind of drunk I am. Honestly... I can see myself as being the kind of drunk that would attempt at having sex with everyone. o.o Another reason I may want to pick who I get drunk around carefully. For realz... I don't think people realize how much of a horn dog I iz. Anyways... that is what has been on my mind. :)

Current Mood: contemplative

So I contacted Apple via their chat...thing on their website. I needed to talk to someone about this MobileMe thing. I signed up for it and it syncs my iMac and my Macbook just fine. But when I use it on a web browser everything but the mail and my iCal works just fine. So I waited for an hour or so to be helped. Finally someone responds and ask me what my problem is. I explain and they then copy/paste the information from the website I had already tired (I won't contact help centers if I can solve the problem myself... which I usually do.) from their help page into the chat session. Alot of help that was. These people are basically don't know anything about the software and are paid to copy and paste shit to me that is already on the dame website. I could tell when the person wasn't copy/pasting because they were to lazy to spell anything correctly. XD Lol. So... yeah. Apple isn't doing so good on customer service in my opinion. My problem did not get resolved so I got stuck with a copy/pasted response of "We are still working out the kinks with Mobileme. Please be patient with us and know that your problem has been noted."

Whatever. As long as my iMac and Macbook are synced I am happy. I have yet to try the iDisk tho... so I should prolly test it.

-Zeke-

Current Mood: blah

So... I enjoyed Hell Boy 2. So far no one else has. It always seems to turn out that way with the movies I like. I think I know why. I put presentation before everything. I don't give a shit about the story or the acting. I wanna see shit blow up, crazy ass looking creatures and robots, and some intense and dynamic shots of of fighting or action. I guess thats why most of the movies I like other people think suck. :( Which is kinda sad because the majority of the time when I take someone to see a movie or if we watch a movie at my house the end up saying they thought it was stupid. But whatever. I liked Speed Racer, I liked parts of Hancock, and I liked Hell Boy 2. Bite me.

I think I'm the same way with music. I don't care about lyrics. Give me a nice beat and I will give the song five fucking stars. Lol.

Spore is amazing. Fin.

Current Mood: lonely

Alright, alright... whats has been going on.

So I was dating someone...but now I'm not due to complications...but...we still are kinda dating? Just not "exclusively"? Apparently, she is worried about hurting me cuz she is afraid she will get drunk and cheat on me accidentally. So I don't mind an open relationship if thats what she want. I suck at serious relationships so it works out better this way. :) I still get to do all the stuff I enjoy without the short pointless commitment portion that always seems to distract me from all the important stuff that I need to get done.

...x_x Although I must say I am getting tired of hearing "she is just using you" and "You could do so much better." What makes people think its not the other way around. Or that we both actually enjoy the way things are. I'm not as good of a person as people like to think...at least as far as "values" go... I'm just overly nice and enjoy making people happy. Thats really my only decent quality.

Wall-E was off the chain!!! Pixar really out did itself on this movie. For all of you who know what kind of stuff I'm into, you can understand why I would love this movie...

I've found a group called Hardnox and I love their music. I highly recommend them.

Done.

Current Mood: naughty

I just set up an Xbox live account so anyone that wants to play something with me, my gamer tag is...

Zeketonic

Thank you, Mike, for coming up with that wonderful name.